things are starting to go out of hand.
hanis, what happens to all the organization and timetable and managing everything?
training is starting to be 5 x a week and with work and everything, i don't know whether i can cope. i can really cope with the 4 x week already. but i gotta manage it somehow, somewhat.
i can do it if i put my mind, heart and soul to it.
even if it means waking up at 5am. i have to and i will do it.
hanis, discipline yourself.
hanis, you got yourself into this so you have to find a way through or around it.
but, don't ever forget your friends and family and the one you love.
they will no doubt be there for you but don't take them for granted.



-a self reminder.























cry love.
because i know it'll make you feel better than how i've treated you today, and this week.
just to let you know, i love you so much and will not let you go.
i will not let us drift apart.
things are piling up, not for me but for us.
i just started work and i would want to quit it so that i can have more time with you, if not for the financial constraints.
i know that you probably am still upset at me, hate me for everything.
i know and i'll accept it.
but what i want you to know, is that i deeply love you.
that's the ONLY thing that i want you to know.
tonight, since i can't wipe your tears away...i'll join you.
for that's the only thing that i want to do now.