Siti Nurhanis
Sprinter
Hurdler
Cedarian
Victorian
i love you
Thursday, October 16
i'm getting this fuzzy feeling in me. dont know whether it's good.
anyway, life's super hectic for me these few days or week and i'm sorry that i'm not able to do certain things on time or sth like that.i really am busy with 'thousands' of projects and some other stuff. it's not easy when everything just comes to you at the same time. So, if you change the plan or tell me any last minute stuff, i'm gonna 'kill' you. haha. not literally but it's cause i don't think i can really afford any last minute changes or sth like that. hope you all understand. i hope things will get better after sunday cause i'm EXHAUSTED but i doubt so. eventhough so, i'll be okay cause i'm strong.yay(:
i think the fuzzy feeling is a mixture of feelings inside of me right now.
anyway,mym mum's friend and her 3 kids from new zealand are staying at my place for 3 days. really hyper kids but it's fun being around them. they're quite smart too((: and they'll always have sth up their sleeves. and three of them will be taking turns to hug me every 5 minutes. haha. anyone wanna break their record???? ((: oh, and we were making cards for their parents when their mum went out for shopping and one of them actually drew a picture for me. it's really cute(: so i pasted it on my cupboard together with my other awesome photos. thank you!!!!
but i doubt i'll be able to spend time with them anymore. i have to go to school early in the morning tomorrow and i'll be back really late. And i'll repeat the cycle on saturday and sunday. roars!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, i better start on m work now.thank god there's no official school anymore.
i've tried my best. but my best is just not enough. it's never enough. but i have to keep on trying. reverse psychology doesn't work on me. i bet you didn't know that didn't you. you've wasted your one year doing that on me. i'm not stupid, i'm not blind, i'm not deaf. why can't you just be in my shoes and just be understanding for once? stop asking me to repeat. i'm gonna work hard not to repeat. i know myself and i'm sorry, you just don't know the real me. stop acting as though you know. i've always tried my best in everything i do. but as i said, it's never enough. can't you just give me a little support and help me instead of bringing me down? seriously.
