have you ever wondered why i am so reluctant to do it?
or why it seem as though i don't care and i can't be bothered?
maybe you all should ask yourself,yeah?
it's not once. not twice. it has been a couple of times already.
what's the use of sacrificing my sleep?
if i don't say it, it doesn't mean that i don't care.
what's the use of saying sorry and doing it again especially when i can't get the sleep i need.
no joke okay.
2-3 days straight without sleep. and trainings the next day.
don't complain if you dont sleep for a day.

went out with jasmine and her 2 friends: cihui and xiaoxuan and xiaoxuan's friend- huiqing.
had loads of fun!!!((: went to marina breeks for dinner. ahhaha. xiaoxuan really made me laugh alot throughout the night! haha! :D
really had a great and awesome time with them.(:

oh god, please give me the strength to survive through all of this SH*T.
i need all the strength i can get.
this is not the worst part of my life, i know.
but i just need some room to breath and move around.
i can just feel that i will have to go through more of this SH*T soon.
oh god.please help me.

hurdles training is resuming on wednesday.
i know my mistakes/ flaws and i'm gonna work on it.
make use of whatever i have to be better than i am.
the real competitor is in me.
i need to get through that mental barrier.
yes,i can do it.
this time, i will.






'your happiness might be the source of your smile but your smile may just be the source of your happiness'.
so people, start smiling!
it helps((: