Siti Nurhanis
Sprinter
Hurdler
Cedarian
Victorian
i love you
Friday, December 21
don't feel like updating today. there are so many things to write about but i can't remember what are they.
oh! i watched warlords and Mr mongorium's wonder emporium. warlords is not really that violence after all but its quite a sad story. and the other show is not magical enough. haha. i'm just waiting for i am legend.((: we'll see.
i can sense that something's not right. hmmmm.... i hate myself for the fact that i a lot of time but i'm not doing anything. maybe i can finally start cleaning my room once everyone and everything in the house cools down. yay. then finally i'll have some space for myself. yay!!((:
i know. i know that you hate me. for everything that I've done or have not done. you're probably thinking that i'm a disgrace to you. but really, i wonder. is it really me? or am i just a punching bag to you... ....where you'll just scream and blame me for the things that I've not done. seriously,you don't seem to see things that way it is. i'm tired. of being here. i doubt you know. even if i cry,i doubt you'll know. even if i'm dying,i doubt you'll know. you're not the only one who's feeling the pain. and i've tried. i've tried to be the best that i can be. isn't that enough for you?
maybe i shall just continue to be.... irresponsible inconsiderate unkind heartless lazy uncaring rude an idiot giving you that superficial smile everyday giving you that superficial laughter acting as though i LOVE being here
