Friday, June 1
couldn't sleep last night.
thought about loads of things.
finally giving myself time to think and reflect.
i've never done anything right for the past few months.
but it's time that to make up for all this wrong-doings.
like homework studies and blahs blahs.
finally clarified some things with you.
i'm really sorry.
i hope we're truce and even.
no more grudges and hatred.
i'm really sorry.
and my mind is so confused right now.
too many feelings,emotions and things i have to handle.
and thus,not being able to give you specific examples.
so now,we're gonna clarify all our doubts in the future.
oh wait.
its me who's going to clarify all my doubts.
and you know.
i'm not strong,i'm weak.
and yes, maybe its time that i blow up sometimes.
well,i dunnoe.
i really don't.
there's so many things that are going on in my life.
things that a teenager shouldn't be thinking about.
its just the level of expetation that people expect from me that stresses me up.
i'm going through and have gone through a difficult stage of my life.
and i will be going through more of it.
and probably, not having someone to really be there for me is why i'm bottling it up.
yupp,like i've told you i don't have anyone except one but i don't talk to her often.
not expecting you to be one but i hope this misunderstanding between us is cleared or is clearing up.
i don't hate you.
i appreciate you for better understanding me now-and i'm sorry that it was harsh.
i know i should have controlled my emotions a little better.
21:44
