Siti Nurhanis
Sprinter
Hurdler
Cedarian
Victorian
i love you
Friday, May 25
i'm not trying to emo but really am at my lowest now. haix.
last day of school makes it even worse. it means that i have to get through this myself. far away from ALL my sources of motivations.
man,i'm soo tired. i all i do these days is sleep:'( didn't get to achieve much:'((
alot of things are happening in my life. run away. that is exactly what is what i wanna do. running away from them won't help at all. but i can't help it.
oh wells.
anyway last day of school. fell asleep during bio. i really could not help it. nobody paid attention in class during bio. but hey,eventhoug i was sleeping, I was paying attention k!! i knew she was talking about mice and whiskers and moustaches and beards.HAHA! see..eventhough i'm asleep ,my brain and ears are still functioning!!
okies,chem was........................................i dunnoe. then no emaths. cleaned the class. 'settled' administrative matters and then got report book back. expected it actually. yupp. i'm quite disappointed and sad- not angry- over sth in my report book. but its ok. probably its good to be in denial sometimes.
after sch,no chem. wanted to go home till i met atiqh. followed her and her juniors to YFC HQ at seletar airport there. SO LONG and SO ULU !! haha. it was funny on how peicai boys didnt wanna go into the room cause we were there. like how boys react when all they see was girls in the room. lame ppl. ate at the cafeteria while atiqah's juniors changed. they took so long.haha.
then went home. bought mahjong paper and a marker. oh wells. i'll do it tonight if my body allows.
it sounds as though i'm old. way old. anyways,my body is starting to wear out. my muscles,my joints and etc. i just 'strained' my ankle and hurt my knee. cool? wth.
haix. interesting isn't it? how things can get.
i'm all drained out. oh what the heck. can i call up somebody and blabber about everything? maybe i shouldn't or they'll just go-what the heck.
i guess i'm too afraid to speak out. to tell you what i really am feeling. i dount you would even want to hear from me again. i have a feeling that you're starting to hate me. hate me for everything. i'm not too sure now. but is it ever possible for me to talk to you again? is it ever poossible for me to feel wanted again. i'm not too sure. you're busy and i am too. we'll never be able to talk again.
