Saturday, March 31
wow.
ydae's trg was like at kallang
SIAOW
my run was bad..nvm
went home after that-was 'lost' but then in the end met up woth the rest of the trackers and then went home together. syahirah and siying almost walked through the geylang lorongs like lorong 16 and 18++
omg
luckily i was on the bus and i saw them so i gave them some directions and THANk GOODNESS they're safe or i can't stop blaming myself.
hmm.
never ever place your hopes too high on something that you can't be sure of.
never ever trust others no matter how much you wish to trust them.
NEVER.
and you.
you're just a friend nothing more
not even a scandal.
cause a part of me told me not to trust you fully no matter how much i want to.
maybe my heart's right.
maybe you're not meant for me.
unless YOU can prove me wrong somehow.
thruthfully,
i don't even know you that well.
i don't even know whether you're telling me the truth.
after a long time,
my heart finally melted upon seeing YOU.
but i guess,
i'm just too scared.
i can't trust you as much as i trust t.j.
i'm sorry.
its not like i'm after t.j. or sth.
eventhough i have never met t.j personally, he makes me feel secured.
we are just friends.
but the feeling of being friends with t.j. and you are just different.
wow.
i'm scared that my heart will be broken again.
it was semi-broken by t.j. and someone else
and i won't allow YOU to break it.
i'm sorry.
anyway, all sec 4s had to go for speech day.how boring it is.almost slept but couldn't.cheered for some of the prizewinnersbut mainly throughout the whole thing,alot of things were in my mind.
really alot.
i was thinking of my family
someoone
my friends
my graduated seniors
my juniors
my teachers
my LIFE
i almost cried again.
but i have to be strong.
oh dear allah,
give me the strength and guidance.
i'm too weak
i can't take it
pls help me.
send someone whom i really can trust to brighten up my life.
help me allah.
13:22
