Monday, March 5
dear grandma
i hope you're alright
you didnt sound too good today when i called
i know i'm being an ass
but do take care of yourself..((x
really, i mean it
take really good care of yourself kays
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and to my other grandma
(who is no longer in this world)
i know you're looking at me now
and i know that you are disappointed with me
really i know that you are
but i aso hope that you know what i'm feeling right now.
if only you're here to be my friend again
if only you were here to comfort me again
lik the way you used to years back before you left
if only
but life has to go on
and i'm here all alone-really alone
ibu and ayah has so many things to handle
and i dont want to be a burden to them
if only you were here to help me tell them what i'm feeling
and that i love you and them alot
i doubt they know that
if only
if only, you were here...
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if i were to bleed to death
noone will bother
and noone shall bother
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i'm so far away from everyone else
and i don't care
let it be
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